To James on our 3rd Wedding Anniversary,
@CharleyMackasy perfectly summarises my feelings in these two beautiful creations.
After we received the news that Joshua had weeks, if months to live, just one week after his 1st birthday, I couldn’t see a way through. I especially struggled after Joshua passed away. You were there each and every step of the way, to support me and thankfully you still are!
With regards to managing Jolly Josh, in particularly, this year with the build, as a new Mummy to Oliver (soon to be one) and struggling with grief, parenting after loss and post-traumatic stress disorder, it’s certainly been a very challenging year! One that, yet again, in all honesty, has tested our relationship. I have felt ‘out of my depth’ on many occasions but you have always encouraged me to ‘breathe and hold on.’
Three years ago, we brought our wedding forward so that Joshua could be present, the day was perfect in every way. We didn’t understand the depth of darkness that we’d be exposed to, we’ve seen and supported each other in the most horrific pain and we are each other’s strength with the help of our children.
‘A strong marriage rarely has two strong people at the same time. It is a husband and wife who take turns being strong for each other in the moments when the other feels weak.’ (Ashley Willis)