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jollyjoshrochdale
- May 16, 2020
- 2 min
When Coronation Street is our reality
At present @ITV @Coronation Street are revealing a storyline for Jane Danson (Leanne Battersby) and Simon Gregson (Steve McDonald). This story of a #mito diagnosis became our reality on this day in 2017, just 8 days after Josh's 1st birthday, after months of incorrect ‘viral’ diagnosis’, hospital admissions and then confirmation of extensive brain damage. We arrived at ‘that day’ On this day, I remember being so very cold, my body went into shock and I couldn’t stop shaking.
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jollyjoshrochdale
- May 8, 2020
- 1 min
Joshua's 4th Birthday
As the nation celebrates #VEday #VE75, our family not only reflects in celebration of freedom and victory, we also remember Joshua, on what would have been his 4th birthday. My thoughts this year are in the form of a poem, as I consider all the things that Joshua would have become, aged 4... If only! #emptyarms #childbereavement #childloss This year, due to #lockdown #covid19 #coronavirus #pandemic Joshua's birthday gathering at his memorial oak tree was a quieter occasion.
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jollyjoshrochdale
- May 1, 2020
- 1 min
Brother's, Parenting After Loss
Yesterday, for a brief moment I thought I saw Joshua. It of course was Oliver but I've never seen him looking so much like his big brother, so much so that I was taken aback, so shocked that I cried. Oliver is currently the same size that Joshua was when he passed away, he is now wearing the very last of his brother's clothing. I was unsure as to how I felt about Oliver wearing some of Joshua’s clothes but I decided that it’s what would normally happen, brother’s would wear ‘
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jollyjoshrochdale
- Mar 27, 2020
- 2 min
Covid-19 My Thoughts during Lockdown
In 2017 James and I travelled (with authorisation and ‘support’) from London to our Children’s Hospice in Chorley with Joshua’s body wrapped in frozen peas as he lay across my knee- this journey demonstrated our desperation to be at our beloved ‘holiday home’. We arrived 16 hours post Joshua’s death. I have been trying to process this this for some time, wanting to make positive change and finally began to share my feelings when I presented at the North West Children's Pallia
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jollyjoshrochdale
- Jan 6, 2020
- 2 min
Oliver is 6 months old!
Today Oliver is 6 months old! I have no idea where the time has gone, for most this is a simple monthly milestone, for us it's a sigh of relief... The past six months have, in truth, been very difficult, Oliver is loved and adored but he's been a very different baby to Sophie and Joshua due to terrible reflux and colic. We honestly feel as though we've been in a whirlwind, and with severe lack of sleep as Oliver has struggled to settle, unfortunately he hasn't been the most
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jollyjoshrochdale
- Dec 31, 2019
- 3 min
Moving Forwards into 2020
Moving forward into a New Year is always difficult for us, the further time passes, the more we feel that people expect us to have ‘moved on’ from our grief. This will never be the case, we have come to terms with the fact that we carry this weight of emotional and physical pain, forever. No amount of ‘New Year, New Start’ catchphrases will enable us to overcome being bereaved parents. There’s also an overwhelming sense of heartache that is inflicted in knowing that our life
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jollyjoshrochdale
- Dec 6, 2019
- 3 min
More Than A Photo
Today Oliver is five months old, for us this is an important stage. His bother Joshua had monthly milestone photographs, like many babies, and we had added notes of his developments to enhance the memories. However, when it came to writing Joshua’s milestone achievements for month five, it became clear that he had not reached any and in actual fact had regressed; Joshua had lost the skills that he had previously acquired. We had noticed ‘symptoms’ of illness in Joshua from
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jollyjoshrochdale
- Nov 2, 2019
- 6 min
A Place To Call Home
Just two years after the launch of Jolly Josh’s first ever session, our families were today invited to a ‘Mystery Meet’, alongside the Mayor and Mayoress of #Rochdale to be present for our much awaited announcement. We were incredibly excited to publicise that we now have the keys to our own venue! This venture was first discussed in September after celebrating our 2nd Year Anniversary and has moved forward swiftly. The long term goals which we once only dreamed of achieving
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jollyjoshrochdale
- Sep 4, 2019
- 3 min
'Absent from class'
Sophie, Joshua’s older sister started nursery just ten days after Joshua passed away, an extremely difficult transition for her and for me. Our attachment meant that in the rawest of grief we needed each other, therefore she only did very short sessions which developed with time. This week Joshua should have begun his nursery adventure, instead we mark two years since his funeral. I use the term ‘funeral’ loosely. If truth be told I was unable to give Joshua the funeral he de
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jollyjoshrochdale
- Aug 6, 2019
- 4 min
Oliver is One Month Old #HomeTubeFeeding
Today Oliver is one month old yet he’s actually only 37 weeks plus 6 days gestation. He’s been home for just over two weeks and that’s due to the new ‘home tube feeding’ programme which is supported by the Neonatal Outreach Team. Oliver fed independently for six days after birth; however as a premature baby #prembaby born at 33 weeks he began to tire and required a #NasoGastric feeding tube (#NGT). #EstablishingFeeding for Oliver meant that we had to consider the fact that at
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jollyjoshrochdale
- Jul 13, 2019
- 7 min
Oliver is One Week Old, NICU
Oliver is one week old, we have spent our first week on the #NeonatalIntensiveCareUnit #NICU and we are thrilled to say that Oliver has wowed us all… The past week has been an utter whirlwind with so many different emotions, the primary emotion being LOVE. I have experienced three very different births. Sophie was born on the #BirthCentre, I arrived at the @RoyalOldhamHospital at 9cm dilated and just managed a beautiful water birth. Joshua was born at home as a planned water
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jollyjoshrochdale
- Jul 8, 2019
- 5 min
Meet Our New Arrival, Oliver...
Joshua and Sophie are now older siblings, their brother Oliver James couldn’t wait to make his arrival! On Saturday 6th July, Oliver James was born at 15:17pm after spontaneous labour which came as a huge shock to us all at 33 weeks plus 3 days. We are all absolutely besotted and overwhelmed with love, Oliver's arrival was an extremely emotional experience, more so than most births, due to the devastation of us having experienced #childbereavement. Oliver is currently on the
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jollyjoshrochdale
- Jun 16, 2019
- 4 min
Father's Day 2019
To James on Father’s Day 2019, You are appreciated for being the most amazing Daddy to our children. You have supported me in every way since our lives were torn not only with the #grief of learning of Joshua’s brain damage but especially since our lives were ravaged by his #terminaldiagnosis. I couldn’t bear to face the facts when we were told of Joshua’s fate. I couldn’t even look at the consultants, though I was in shock I remember you holding me and you’ve held me ever si
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jollyjoshrochdale
- May 8, 2019
- 4 min
Joshua's '3rd birthday'
Today, 8th May 2019 we mark our beloved, brave Joshua’s 3rd birthday. It breaks our hearts not to be celebrating as we should be, to only have the ‘what ifs’ of imagining what would have and should have been, to see our little boy opening his gifts on his special day, to holding a celebratory birthday party and to glimpsing at the hopes and wishes of all the things to come in his next year. Joshua was born via a planned home birth May 8th 2016, we were overwhelmed with love.
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